Dedication

So nothing has been going on lately. My days have been going by faster and faster. I think it's because I literally sleep my time away since I'm so tired. I mean, the most intense thing that has happened to me is my allergies stirring up on me...other than that..nothing....

OH WHO AM I KIDDING? MY BELOVED DUMB BUTT COUSIN IS GONE TO COLLEGE!

It's true, she left today at exactly 10:30 AM and although my feelings for her departure  may seem nonchalant, maybe even sadly uncaring, it is just the way I deal when someone I LOVE SO MUCH leaves me. GONE FOREVER. 

Now, ok I am not dramatic. I mean if she left all the way to the west coast or to another country, then maybe I'd shed a tear. But, the girl is only an hour away so I'm not even that heart broken. It is a little weird because I keep thinking she's just sitting on her lazy ass at home watching tv and I could just call her up and force her to do stuff with me. But sadly, she's not. She's all the way in nowheres massachusetts having fun and meeting new people. The funny thing is, and I am getting a little teary eyed, we've been going to the same school for years and whenever we had to meet new people, we always had each other to be anti-social with. We were each other's comfort blanket and if whenever we felt like talking shit, we had each other. She's one of the only people I can show my real feelings to because I enjoy her indifference responses to my constant mood swings. She'd never judge me whether I'm being emo, happy, peppy, angry, whatever. She's just there to always be my bitch pillow. But it's a mutual thing. I bitch, she listens. She bitches, I bitch back for her. I protect her and watch over her while she provides me with my own safety zone. Ya know, maybe sometimes our actual personalities clash but we have developed this relationship so close that no matter where we go, or what we do, we will always be there for each other. Our connection will always been the same, no more, no less. I like that, she's like my medium and I'll always have a medium. 

Anyway, she's up there now and I'll probably see her soon or talk to her online or whatever. I hope she's having fun because as much as we hate people(although i express it a lot more often than she does) I want her to meet cool peoples. I want her to meet the right people and I want her to have a good experience. Yeah, so, that's that. I was talking to my friend vicky today about missing peoples when they go off to college. I guess, I will miss them but I don't think I will cry that much about it. Friendships, I think will and do last a long time if clearly, there is a good relationship. I know that when it comes to friends, I make the most effort to keep up connections especially if they are peoples that I have a good connection with. Friends matter a lot to me because those are the people who have shaped me, and supported me throughout my life. Sure, I've made some bad ones but even with bad ones, I've managed to learn how to be a better person. Now, i know what kind of people I want to be friends with and what type people I like. Anyway, i'll miss my friends and I'll be sad but now, we'll all know and realized just how important we are to each other. Of course, there's im chat, facebook, cell phone and whatever else to keep in touch so it's a hell of a lot easier nowadays. 

yay. positive entry.