UPDATE LIFE.

i havent posted in a while...mostly because i am always swarmed with homework and the little time i do have to do something, i use to it to sleep or come out of my room to talk to people. i am sleeping in right now. i missed drawing class because i am just so exhausted. i knew i shouldnt have gone to work yesterday but my stinkin cousin told me to so i went. they had another girl there to help so they didnt even really need me. i wasted 3-4 hours of drawing time. i got home at 6:30, ate dinner and started drawing. then in my attempt to make some new friends other than my roommate, i stupidly agreed to go to this girl's apt down the street for dinner at 9:30. it was nice though and she made asian food so i mean, there's nothing to complain about that. i had a smirnoff ice and stayed there with my other friend, mina at the girls house till like 11:30. though we had a lot of fun, i had 5 drawings due the next morning. so i grabbed a mexican beer and went home to quickly start my homework. i was so exhausted already from the whole day. i went home, whipped out the charcoal and went straight to work...until 1:45 which then i just couldnt take it anymore and went straight to sleep. i hardly finished my last drawing but i couldnt take it anymore, ive been too stressed that i really just couldnt do it. so i slept in. i feel bad but i really just needed it. i was stressing all weekend, doing art on photoshop and sculpture. i was panicky and i am always a bit nervous when it comes to critiques. i always want to make good art, put my best effort but its hard when i have to balance work, homework, friends, and sleep. i am especially nervous in this one class called form study which is like an intro to 3-D art. i don't do 3-D art and it is very new for me. i enjoy the class however and the projects are very interesting but everyone in the class is very critical including the teacher, and most of them are very much into 3-D design. So, i am really having a hard time coming up with materials, ideas, and paying for materials...good thing my form study teacher is obsessed with me being asian :D

the first day of form study, my teacher JP, commented on my chopsticks made of out rice, "not to be stereotypical but you know, in japanese people are very meticulous and clean about their work..." She kept going on and on about japanese art and then in the end i said, "you know im not japanese right?" She turned so red and started laughing. I think that was the beginning of our relationship and every time she mentions an asian artist, she looks at me expecting me to know who it is. It's stupid and funny at the same time considering who she is, and how she is. She is a real nice teacher, and the class is hella fun and i mean, if she likes me for being asian...



then she definetly loooved my rice ballz sculptures :D

Anyway, one of my biggest problems right now is FRIENDS. not that i dont have any but that i have many, in different places, and groups, and personalities. I DO THAT EVERY EVERY TIME I START A NEW SCHOOL. i make friends with a bunch of random ass people but none of them seem to not get along, but have similar interests. i love them all but i neevr know how to unite them into one big group..anmd its hard to hang out with one peson..and then hang out with another. sigh.